Glimpses of Em- Obscured yet Magnified

"wait for my shoes. i will sing fire."

2008-07-16T04:06:49Z

this was a text message that started the day....the day after a crazy wild night of drinking and excessiveness. two nights in a row now of 5 or 6 hours of sleep. i am zombie and brain does not function at the high level i need it to. car broke on sunday night. no car. hard to do stuff when no car. lucky enough to be able to carpool w/ coworkers but it takes additional time for the added coordination and then no time to fix car.

tonight i will sleep. i walked the dog for an hour tonight when i got home as she is suddenly alone all day long and very sad about it.

new jobs are different and this will take an adjustment period.

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packing up for the end

2008-07-01T07:55:41Z

i only have 3 days left at my job. i haven't started to pack my office yet. my goodbye lunch is on wednesday with some close work friends and i'm looking forward to it very much. all of my projects are pretty much handed over. i have a list of stuff to get completed, expense reports, etc and will hopefully accomplish it all tomorrow.

zoe comes home tomorrow. hooray! that will put everything into perspective for me and keep me grounded. i have been missing her the last few days and want to hear about her roadtrip with nanna and the adventures.

cleaning out my office

you find the strangest things when you clean something out.

stuff you didn't know was there.

stuff you weren't prepared to part with.

stuff you wonder why it was kept around.

the clearing and cleaning of something major and timeless stirs up crap with others.

when the stuff is all laying out for all to see it is hard to avoid that it is happening, that it happened.

fuck the past. it has been dragging me down for way to long. i've been running from it trying to get out from under it and it won't let me go...these last and final threads

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Em and Tasha circa 1992-93

2008-07-01T04:06:05Z

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This is a picture of me and Tasha, my first family pet and loyal wonderful german shepard. This picture was taken outside of the house my family and I lived in when I was a teenager growing up in the bay area subburbs. This is after I'd graduated from high school and moved away to Washington State 2 weeks later to be with my boyfriend/fiance. My mom likely snapped this picture when I was down visiting from WA. looks like it was likely about a year after I moved, so likely 1993 as I'd put on weight from living on top ramen and mac n cheese constantly. what is up with my clothes too? i look like i borrowed them from my boyfriend.....Washington changes you..and not always in the good way :)

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Another bad quality pic of Em from back in the day

2008-06-30T05:28:18Z

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me, chris leaning up on car, christine in the car, tom crouching down and becka next to me. 1990? This was in the parking lot to what we called "The Corner", which was one block away from my highschool and where they technically let us smoke.

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can you believe my parents let me leave the house like this?? i was only 16 years old...my parents were very cool and my dad would even help me put my hawk up in the morning before school.

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nice torn fishnets Em! and where the hell is my skirt? my daughter is not to see this as she might use it against me someday in the future. :)

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NEW JOB FOR ME!!

2008-06-30T05:00:46Z

After 11 years at my current northwest nasdaq software giant, I have decided that I am not moving up to Washington State and that I really don't want to travel anymore either. Subsequently and coincidently, I wonderful exciting opportunity came along by the way of bay area networking device company and I decided to jump off of the Cliffs of Change! I gave my notice and July 3rd is my last day in the office. Technically and ironically if i might add- July 4th, independence day is my last day but they are most graciously giving me that day off. New company swooned me and I am very pleased I have made this decision. It feels like the best thing in the world right now. I can't wait for this new chapter in my life to begin. right now, i am saying goodbye, wrapping up and winding down my career at company X......

I am ready to say goodbye. thank you and goodbye.

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Highschool Pics of Emmy

2008-04-27T09:06:56Z

A long lost friend found some old pictures of me and zoe's dad, Chris, from high school recently. She scanned them and sent them over to me in email the other day. Here I am from back in the day...

Emily Highschool 1991 ?

this is me out in the field at lunch time or at break having a smoke..must have been winter and cold for me to be wearing my bomber jacket....my hair was growing out from mohawk i had the summer before..i must be about 16 or 17 in this picture.

Emily and Christine Highschool 1991

My friend Christine and I out in the field again smoking. i was wearing my favorite pair of pants ever!!! blood red, crimson velvet stretch pants!!!! love the 90s!! ...they were stolen out of my car years later....(i am still bitter to have had them stolen)

Emily and Christine Highschool 1990 ?

Christine and I partying over at Paul Gonzales' house in 1991 or 1990...one a many pictures of myself sticking out my tongue...

Emily, Chris, and Ed 1991

Ed, Chris and myself partying over at SpamHouse on st.john/downtown san jose....odd picture in that I got married to the guy in the red shirt (Ed) and then many many years later, had Zoe with Chris. funny to have this picture.

Ron and Chris from Highschool 1991

Chris skating 1991

very cool picture of Chris doing an olly back in the day

Chris drawing 1, back in high school 1990

i don't even hardly remember Chris looking so young and innocent..although i do remember when i first met him he looked like this- good, clean cut sweet little skat8r boy.

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blur

2008-04-26T16:45:07Z

i've been super busy with work lately. i just looked at my last post and thought, 'wow, thats depressing.' but couldn't even remember the feeling cause it seems like so long ago.

i am tired today; i was up till 3.30 4ish in the morning and i am feeling it. i am zombie today. I have no energy for an update other to say that i am not sad, just busy and ready to enjoy the next two days without work.

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breathe in my watery song

2008-04-17T07:00:22Z

the air is heavy tonight.

each breathe betrays my burden

tears streaming down my cheeks.

a torrential rain of honesty pours from my big green eyes. alone, i weep loudly. life is too hard today.

the watery song gives way for silence, stillness

i am quieted by the nothingness.

-e

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Forgot to taste a Guiness while in Ireland..

2008-04-12T22:05:02Z

just home from Ireland yesterday...10 days with Zoe that were so magical! Here's a few pictures from the trip- I'll try to post more once I have them more sorted and organized..

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Ashford Castle, near Cong, Ireland.

Em at Muckross House

Muckross House, Killarney National Park, Killarney, Ireland

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View of Ross Castle from a Jaunting Car ride, Killarney National Park, Killarney Ireland

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Killarney, Ireland

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Blarney Castle, Blarney, Ireland

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Blarney Castle, Blarney, Ireland

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Folk Village and Bunratty Castle, Ireland

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Street Musicians in Killarney, Ireland

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Expectations Exceed

2008-03-31T00:19:07Z

La Fondue was fucking awesome. 4 hour dinner, a million kinds of fun fondue; it totally exceeded my expectations after waiting like 20 years to go there.

I had such a great Unbirthday yesterday!

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