19 posts from March 2008

La Fondue was fucking awesome.  4 hour dinner, a million kinds of fun fondue; it totally exceeded my expectations after waiting like 20 years to go there. 

Happy Birthday to me!!!!  Today I am celebrating my birthday which was on Feb 18.  On my actual birthday I had that death flu that was going around so today is my UnBirthday Birthday Celebration.

Despite waking up early this morning, we found ourselves rushing out of the house latet this morning.  Zoe had taken the dog out to the grass this morning but informed me in the elevator on our way downstairs that Buffy hadn't 'completed all her tasks' , hadn't fully 'done her business', ect.  "well, crap" I exclaimed unintentionally...Zoe chuckled at me, the irony not being lost on her.  Despite being only 11 years old, she has a great sense of humor and even though she's not allowed to swear herself, she does understand the funny nuances of the english language...so Zoe's heads into the gated parking area to the car and I decide to quickly walk Buffy around the gated parking lot.  Halfway around, Zoe yells at me through the wroght iron gate, "Ma-ooooM!  Commmon- WE"RE GOING TO BEEEE LATE!" I automatically match her tone and volume, yelling back to her "The DOG NEEDS TO POO!!!!!".....I turn around to continue walking ahead and notice a group of construction workers about 15 feet away working on a streetlight or something...they are all looking at me.  some are crouched down, some are facing sideways and they are all in the middle of some important task that requires 3 strong men to hold onto the same pole, but they all have thier heads turned at me.  me and my 7:55am look- black sweats, black west valley wildcats middle school sweatshirt (sporting my daughter school pride), purple Uggs, bed head unbrushed hair, no makeup and a fancy black and white leather bowler tote purse...and a 10llbs shih tzu that is most often described as "oooohhhhh, how cute!" or "super cute"..  i guess my screaming about poop got their attention.  my rushed-coming back home to get ready for work morning look is not really my best look..it's not my 'look at me, look at me' moment...it's more of a...if I'm in the car, i am invisible kind of thing.  anyway, it was pretty funny.  i told zoe about it on the way to school and she laughed and laughed at me.  When you are 11 years old, it is super cool to see your parents in embarrassing situations.  i wasn't actually embarrassed..but i get more laughs from my girl if I pretend to be during the telling of the story.  

the passport gods were good to us today and Zoe's Passport arrived in the mail!  just in the lick of time!  we danced around for a full 5 minutes chanting and singing and jumping...

i can't sleep.  i didn't sleep well last night and now i find myself unable to drift off into lullaby land due to worry and stress.

i started this blog in october 2006 in an effort to try to relate to my then boyfriend at the time's facination with blogging. 

i am not quite sure what purpose it is serving for me now.

How much more black can it be?

none.

none more black.

In BTVS, Season 8, Buffy sleeps with a girl.  this is shocking as they didn't build up to it or anything...they don't show Buffy as really mellowing out and becoming more experimental or anything...it's  just like 'wam.bam.thankyoumam'...i guess it's meant to be her 'college' experimental thing, but it just really seemed to come out of no where.  and no, for those of you that aren't reading season 8 and following the story..no, it wasn't with willow. 

yesterday at work, someone came into my office and handed me a card and a pen and asked me to sign my ex boyfriend's goodbye and thank you card.  this person was newish and did not know the sordid story of how he suddenly broke it off with me to cheat with another coworker and how devastated I've been over that level of deep human betrayal.  anyway..upon hearing whose card it was i felt completely put on the spot..she was standing in my office waiting for me to sign...watching me intently...i put it down and started like i was going to pretend to write something...after all, it would be a cold day in hell when i would my name to a card with "thank you" on it for him...now maybe if it was a card entitled "Fuck You" or if inside the card it said "Thank you....for destroying my ability to trust others"...anyway...i stopped myself short of the humiliation of having to pretend I wasn't a complete bitch and just decided to be a complete bitch- or rather- just be true to who i am and my feelings.  I just stopped and said 'nope' and handed it all back to her without signing.  she was completely shocked and looked at me all freaky like she wanted to ask why the hell not, but was too shocked to have someone in the office environrment refuse to sign a card for another person...anyway...a few hours later....she knocks on my office door again and i wave her in, put my conf call on mute and she comes in- gives me a big hug and says "i'm so sorry, i didn't know" and then says something mean about him in that woman solidarity kind of way. hooray..  good triumphs evil.  he is evil.  he is now officially gone from my office. my life. 

1 passport, 3 hotel bookings and some new luggage to go...