i can't sleep. i didn't sleep well last night and now i find myself unable to drift off into lullaby land due to worry and stress.
I am thinking about Zoe and how I need to take better care of myself so that i will always be around to take care of her. I am scared that as a single parent, if something were to happen to me....she would be left without....well..i just mean that there is so much I want to show her and teach her....I have so much to tell her....I worry that if something were to happen to me that all of my stories, my life lessons, my points of view, my philosophies would all be lost with me...
all of this is a terrible fatalistic way to think...especially at midnight on monday night. no useful thing will come from this line of thinking.
also- i think i spilled coffee a few drops of coffee on my macbook the other day...the letter "e" is sticking and it is very annoying. how am i to fix this? please don't tell me the solution is to go into that pretentious bar in the apple store?
i am sad tonight. i have cried a lot today. i need a hug.